(Inspired by the women on the TV show Satyameva Jayate and their resilience in protecting their kids against abusive spouses! )
A Mother's cry!
I wish I could stop crying. I wish I can stop the pain. It feels like dying. Would stopping to breathe feel more sane?
I can’t believe what I did to my life. Messed it up to satisfy others qualms. Why didn’t I listen to voice inside, which said STOP!
Everything hurts, everyday seems inhumane. When life said live why did I say no let’s wait and watch
Walk out says my head, but my heart says no. My little one is so attached, how do I let go?
I am giving up living for you little one, but will you understand, when you stand next to me later in life, trying to let go of my hand.
With a smile on my face I carry you to school hiding the burn in my eye to let the tears loose.
I hold you close little one, brushing sand off your hair but all I want to do is grab and run far away.
Will you understand if I tell you that the father you love is responsible for the despair
or will you turn to him leaving me hurting far more than I could bear.
So I sit quiet here, waiting for the pain to subside.
Because little one, if I left who will protect the stars in your eyes?