A Mother's cry!

To all the Moms who sacrifice and suffer abuse for their child's smile!
(Inspired by the women on the TV show Satyameva Jayate and their resilience in protecting their kids against abusive spouses! )

A Mother's cry!

I wish I could stop crying. I wish I can stop the pain. It feels like dying. Would stopping to breathe feel more sane?

I can’t believe what I did to my life. Messed it up to satisfy others qualms. Why didn’t I listen to voice inside, which said STOP!

Everything hurts, everyday seems inhumane. When life said live why did I say no let’s wait and watch

Walk out says my head, but my heart says no. My little one is so attached, how do I let go?

I am giving up living for you little one, but will you understand, when you stand next to me later in life, trying to let go of my hand.

With a smile on my face I carry you to school hiding the burn in my eye to let the tears loose.

I hold you close little one, brushing sand off your hair but all I want to do is grab and run far away.

Will you understand if I tell you that the father you love is responsible for the despair

or will you turn to him leaving me hurting far more than I could bear.

So I sit quiet here, waiting for the pain to subside.

Because little one, if I left who will protect the stars in your eyes?